To be content in the not knowing, and to accept that nothing that happens ‘to’ you, or around you is within your control, is to be truly free. Alive and aligned and in the flow.
Any control you think you have, over anything, or anyone including yourself, is illusion. It is your ego striving desperately to feel safe and not alone.
We come from a place of knowing and feeling that we are one. All life, everywhere is one, and we are an important part. There is no separation. Just different expressions of that oneness. Different stories. Different paths evolving at different rates, experiencing the vast range of contrast this human existence offers.
When we are born into human form, the forgetting of this truth is so complete.
Yet the feeling of where we came from is held within us. In every cell. Every atom.
That is what we are all searching for.
That is the fear we feel in our bellies. The fear of being alone. Being abandoned. Of not being enough. The way back home to this feeling of completeness and oneness calls, but we don’t know how to hear it or feel it. Our inner compass pulls towards this feeling, but it is buried within the forgetting.
We must follow the feelings, like breadcrumbs leading us back to ourselves. Accept you know nothing, and that is exactly as it is meant to be. You can not know, and even if you could, you wouldn’t actually want to.
But life is trying to lead you. To show you. To help you remember. We can either keep following the breadcrumbs, or take a leap of faith. In taking the leap of faith, in surrendering and letting go of what you think you know, you will be lead back home much more quickly.
You will avoid prolonged unnecessary suffering. Every leap must be rewarded with confirmation of a fragment or glimpse of that feeling of wholeness. You will feel a buzz. Alive. Loved. Seen, heard out appreciate. It will feel good.
It must feel good.
You must gather and build these fragments. Like pieces of a puzzle, collect them, and start creating your new picture. Each will create good feelings inside you. The feeling of seeing something you find beautiful. Of falling in love. Of awe or wonder. Of joy, laughter or lightness……
All of these are the right pieces for your new, authentic picture of yourself. But, do not judge, or try to figure out what your picture will look like, before you have let go of all your old pieces. You can’t and you will limit it. Limit what you can become.
When we use references from our current memory, we can not heal fully. Trust the external process. Trust life. Trust God….. The universe…… The bigger picture…… Whatever label you prefer.
Let your conditioned self, step aside. Be kind. Send love, but ask them to allow you to discover your new truth. And it must feel good. That is the only way to heal and reprogramme all your current distortions.
Start to fill yourself with love, acceptance, joy, new experiences, fun, laughter, play from a source other than yourself. Otherwise you can’t get past your own backlog of ‘evidence’ as to why things are the way they are, and what is it isn’t possible.
You have no idea what is possible.
You are capable of creating a new reality way beyond your rational mind. Once you start to feel these good feelings, you are on the path to attract more. It must be the path that brings you joy. There is no destination. It must be now. There is no waiting for any circumstance to be different. Everything is actually as it should be. Take the leap of faith with your heart open.